A lack of confidence in flying

I am not sure about you but just lately I have had a distinct lack of confidence when having to travel by aeroplane.

It is something that is quite new for me, I had always been such a relaxed air passenger.

Nowadays I have various negative emotions when travelling in the air. It all starts at the airport, if there is any sort of delay I start to question why this might be, how bizarre you are probably thinking.

As I board the aeroplane I start to look around me for possible terrorists! What does a terrorist look like however? My mind then starts to question how I would react if the plane were to be hijacked.

I really hate the take off. The roar of the engines, then all of the noise and the power of the plane speeding down the run way. Just get up, I think to myself.

Once in the air I find myself listening to the noises of the engines and often look at the stewards and stewardesses to ensure that they are at ease.

Then there is the landing, will the landing gear work etc?

All in all I have become some what of a wimp.

I dedicate myself to think in a positive manner, so why am I thinking so negatively?

I suppose I am very happy in life. I have worked very hard to eradicate my stutter and am in no way ready to die.

Despite this I do need to start relaxing whilst travelling by air, it certainly can not continue in its present form.